Adam and His Electricity

Anneke's voice is just pure <3 She seems more real than Vibeke.I wrote on her fanpage wall though,she did not reply me. :(

 

I feel like a real worthless guy.Like seriously,i really don't deserve any of your friendships.It's not that i don't care much about my birthday.It's just that it really does not deserve to be remembered.

 

Speaking of which,thanks Kristal for your birthday wishes!It was pleasantly surprising. :D Welcome back to Singapore!Very hot right.Rawr!

 

Back to Anneke.I downloaded their if_then_else album.The Gathering album that is.It's just fantastic.Not as oomphy as Home,but the songs seriously pack a mean sublime punch still.That's it,i'm gonna go Europe and meet her one day.I doubt Agua de Annique will ever come Singapore.

 

I also ordered The Gathering's A Noise Severe dvd,hurry come in!!!!

 

I going hospital tomorrow.Bah.Toodles.

 

Herbal Movement-The Gathering

The fabric softener of the mind
makes everything easy
and we slide down

Slide over, you

The fabric softener of the mind
makes everything lazy
and we dive down

Slide over, you

It just dawned on me that i'm such a lousy friend.Heck.I don't even deserve to be friends with any of you guys.I'm so horrible.I'm so selfish and self-centered.I don't dare to love at times.Sigh.

 

Seriously,it's just a birthday,don't need to wish me and all.I appreciate it lah.But not needed.

 

 

Okay in no real order,but as per every year,here it goes.

 

Thanks all who wished me happy birthday and all,whether in person,msn,facebook or by smses.

 

Thanks Matthew Cheong,Joshua Chong,Mou,Lucas,Ryan,Shi Chun,Natalie Wong,Moses,Sherry twin,Tarcia,Jonathan,Chun Ming,Wynn,Koko,Glen,Anthony,Regina Grace,Brandon Mak,Leonard Chen,Rachel Chen,Christine Tan,Marianne Chan,Jarad,Audrey Lim,Keat Ling,Amy,Timmy,Ajeeja 'Fried Kimchi' Limbu,Nicole Siew,Alex,Brandon Lim,Thomas,Cheryl Lim,Ian's mum,Ricky,Taufiq,Leonard Gan,Gerard Bong,Samuel Bong,Milli,Mark Romario,Melvin Lim,Audrey Low,Cheryl Gien,Meng Xuan,Ms Pan,Brandon Krygsman,Ian Leong,Dominic Puah,Brother Jude,Eugene,Ian Rodrigues,Dorothy,Andrew Lau,Gabriel,Desmond,Matthew Wong,Julian Wong,Geri and TalkBass.com.

 

Thanks choir for the dinner and ice cream.

 

Thanks Dorothy for your birthday gifts.

 

Thanks Jiam Jiam.I don't know,just thanks.

 

I'm sorry if i missed your name.

 

But yea,it's just a birthday.I know some people important to me forgot,but hey it's okay.It's nothing.But yea there are those who remembered and thanks,Jiams,Nicole,Meh,Chun Ming,Geri.

 

I wonder when i'll die.

 

Toodles.

 

Saturnine-The Gathering

The day you went away
You had to screw me over
I guess you didn't know
all the stuff you left me with
is way too much to handle
But I guess you don't care

You don't need to preach
you don't have to love me, all the time

Whatever on earth possessed you
to make this bold decision
I guess you don't need me
While whispering those words
I cried like a baby
hoping you would care

You don't need to preach
you don't have to love me, all the time

You don't have to preach
all the time

This entry was inspired by a random conversation i eavesdropped today.It was a few guys taking about women in a very materialistic way.Like a toy.

 

I'm a man. I dislike men - most men.Girls,beware!

 

Most men are very shallow minded.Making friends with girls?Looks are usually the top few priority.Other than looks?Figure.Sure,they talk to everyone and all,but they always try to be closer to the better looking ones and all.So seriously,even if some girl is quite mean,nasty,selfish and all,guys will still wanna hit on her just because she is damn pretty or hot.The nicest and gentlest one may not neccesarily be the the one with the most perfect set of boobs or have that damn good ass or whatever you guys judge girls by.I never understand you guys.Once my friend bumped into me while i was having lunch with a girl friend of mine.And the next time he saw me,he just went 'Adam!!!Who was that girl you were having lunch with?Damn pretty!!!Can i get to know her?!' I mean,sure.But for that reason?Hmm.

 

And girls,COVER UP!Most men are damn pervertic okay.Let them see abit too much,and their impression of you will change FOR LIFE.I once knew this friend of mine.We were with a bunch of friends walking up a flight of stairs and there was this girl in a mini skirt almost at the top and this guy was like 'Ehh!!Slow down!!She zao geng!!! :D' WTF MAN.GROW UP.Too many a times i see a skimpily clad girl board the bus and all the guys TURN THEIR HEADS AT HER.Like seriously,wtf man.WTF!Also i've heard many conversations amongst guys lah.It ties in with the point above about looks as well.Seriously stop treating girls like a mannequin or a souless creature.Like a painting,or a toy.Like a statue,or an ivory box.Yesterday a friend of mine wore her top too low and i could see way more than i should.So i told her and got on with it.Trust me,let most other guys see your assets and that's all they will be thinking about whenever they see you in the future.They just don't show it on the facade they have.

 

Guys are just too dirty minded too.Seriously,how can they watch porn without their morals evenn twitching?Urgh.Talk to them about something dirty and they'll be wide awake suddenly!

 

OH WELL.I just heard some guys talking about stuffs that made me want to just punch their noses lah.Haha.

 

School's been alright.Must change my plans again.But at least DC BP is over!

 

Ironicaly as it seems,i'm gonna leave you with my DeviantART eye candy.Haha.Toodles.

 

Vodka Inferno-Diablo Swing Orchestra

Saved by her grace, oh so fair without a lock of hair

Grabs her by the waist, lifts her high above

Says: Behold my love!

 

With you, I'll never be lonely

Without you I'll never be sane

For you, I shall conquer the oceans

For you, I'll just leave them again

 

Absinth love affairs, we fill our lungs with hymns of

Pride and poverty and we shall overcome

Bring her into our hearts of tar and stone

Until that warm embrace will come

 

Words so tender, whispered slowly

Heed her bittersweet caress

Swears he'll never leave, he'll never lie to her again

 

My dear, forgive me my feelings

My dear, I'll give you my all

Just save me from all of these thoughts now

Just spare me, be there when I fall

 

Woken by her voice

A song she's hummed so many times before

Hear her calling, hear her yearning

For his hand again

I went to Equinox on Wednesday. The view of Singapore was splendid,but yet it made me sad.In one single view,a stream of happy memories flooded my mind,leaving me longing for those happier days.I saw Plaza Singapura.Wow what a place.It was where Alison and i frequented when we still dated each other.It was also a popular chill out place in sec school.I saw Cathay.Isabel and I went there for movies.The free cone day with Brandon,Claire and Keat Ling.All the memories of that lane.I saw VCH.Oh man,all the band concerts,JiamJiam's concert last year.So much fun memories.I miss that place.I was so innocent back then.Oh please bring me back to those days.I saw Flyer.I did not sit the flyer,but the F1 pit building was where i did the Human Race volunteering.I saw Clarke Quay.Fond memories with Alison there as well.And way in the distance sat the Marina Barrage.Kite flying with Kit!What a memorable day.That was the last time i truly heard from her and all.We drifted slightly,i can feel it.I see Esplanade.The random photo taking sessions with Zheng Yi,Edwin and Sherman.The nice sombre talk and guitar playing by the bay with Marianne Chan.Gabriel's piano recital.Frequented that place with SPJazz too.Namie,Leonard,what great friends.

 

Just too many memories in one picture.Makes me feel so sad when i think of the state i am in right now.

 

I feel the darkness clouding my view from happy thoughts.

 

Zoo date with Geri was a rather great one i must say.We met Eunice and Sam there too since they were working there.Haha.I saw my polar bears.I have a new fav too-leopard cats!!!We caught the show at the Splash! Amphitheatre too.Saw alot of animals.Geri saw a lot of animals shitting too haha.It's nice spending an entire day with her lah.It's quite rare and all.We mentioned that everyone has someone they can talk about anything to,and Geri is the one i can talk anything to.I really treat her as a best friend still lah.

 

Thanks to this date however,i'm now broke! D:

 

Toodles.

We presented our library competition to some G.O.Hs yesterday at the ADRC.Actually only the top3 presented,but all 6 were displayed around the room.I have to say all 3 groups,WAMB,Archie Monkeys and Votum Seperatum presented really well.It was the 1st time everyone from WAMB turned up to present LOL.I presented about shelves layout as well as furnitures.We had to restructure out presentation layout as we had to use powerpoint and we had one more member in the script.But i have to say all went really well!Great job WAMB!Great job to V.S. too.They really deserved their win. :D

 

Oh the food was damn good!

 

Okokok enough of talking,i shall get back to BP submission! :( Toodles!

 

Bye bye!

 

Rusted-Katatonia

A rush through the rusted veins
Illuminate the face of one
So i have a light
So unaware about the consequence

I heard no warning
About the little compromise
The distorted views you had

Cold white spring
A wordless song I sing
Eye
White cloud
All my thoughts are in doubt

After some self reflection today,i realised how annoying and selfish i can be at times.I really need to change that.If i ever annoyed you,frustrated you,angered you,or even hurt you,i'm really sorry,but i really didn't mean to.

 

Anyway,Swensons lunch with dear Stacie was a pretty good one.What can i say?It's always great to meet up with such a great friend anytime man.After all these years,our friendship just keeps getting stronger.

 

Rest of the day was spent in church.Lucas told me about how great it is to have a friend with no other mutual friends and all,and i totaly agreed,for i have one friend like this too.We also talked about many stuffs lah,but that was something that struck me the most cos it was random and yet accurate.

 

Ah crap,i need to go school tomorrow though it's a no-school Friday.Toodles.

 

 

Not bad aye,the camera.

 

2 months back during the time when i saw Isabel off at the airport,my mom asked me,'You're always seeing your friends off,Angie,Chun Ming,now Isabel.If you go overseas,will anyone actually see you off or not?'I replied;'Aiya sure got one lah,even one friend is good enough to me.'But i seriously don't know anymore.I know the way i set my priorities is different from most,but i really don't know if i'm included in anyone's life anymore.

 

There are of course the precious loving friendships that i will cherish no matter what.You know what?Screw my soliloquy about one way or two way friendships.I don't care if the person does not give or show anything in return.I just want to give and love.

 

Toodles.

 

Alone-The Gathering

Now you see me getting better
I'm right here on display
And I'll make it a bit heavier
By going all the way

Did you find it much easier
To stoop to where I was
With your power and your knowledge
To leave me here

Alone...
I'm all alone

Now's the time for being humble
By holding you down on your knees
I suspect you'll stay there and crumble
Rather so then to be alone

Do you believe your heart?
Trying in all around to find
To find your way back inside

I will be there
For you to care
And you will find
Peace of mind

I was caught in the rain today - twice.The 1st one wasn't that bad.The 2nd one was hedious.

 

The 74 i took was awfully slow to start off with.It wasn't the uncle's fault,there was this massive jam at Dunearn Road anyway.I easily spent an hour plus in the bus.That was also when it started raining so frickin crazy.Well so at Lornie Road,the annoying bus broke down,leaving all the passengers stranded at one of those ulu bus stops over there at nightfall.You know how annoying it is?Very okay.Super annoying.

 

I decided to not take a 74 again and wait for the 855.As usual it took 2 rounds of cows to get home before the bus finally came.It came PACKED TO THE VERY FRONT.Because i was hero and ran towards the bus in the rain,the uncle had no choice but to open the door for me.And i could not use my free ride cos 74 is SBS while 855 is SMRT.WTF!

 

The people around me were annoying,i was wet cos the bus stop was so small,the weather pissed me off,the itty bitty scarey cat girls were screaming everytime a huge lightning streaked across the blackened night sky.It was a perfect recipe for the end of mankind,or the end of my happy optimistic mood.You'd expect the worst song to play at a time like this was A Nightmare To Remember by Dream Theater right?NO.My mp3 chose to play Tristania's ...Postludium.Basically it's one minute of rain in the background with a very intense gregorian chant getting louder and louder til it grips you tight before leaving you with silence.Shit man.Theatre of Tragedy's Storm also played.So ironic.855 also had annoying people.What's up man!

 

Nvm,i'm stressed enough with submission already.Choir tomorrow.I miss my friends man.I miss the girls more.I don't know,most of my close friends are girls and are in the choir.

 

Toodles.

Home-Passion's Grace

Marianne Chan-Vocals
Adam Wesley Aw-Vocals, Guitar

[Music and Lyrics by Adam Aw]
What am I doing here?
Oh how I long to disappear
Tangled webs of same old lies
As a part of me inside dies

I hear your name in my head
As I lie here on my bed
Streams of endless misery
Carry me across the sea

My heart pounds for yours

Stay with me as I weep
For my soul is yours to keep
Please don’t mind my foolishness
Listen to me
I’m in distress

The sky cries for you

Take me home, where I stay
Please don’t let me decay
The smell of roses in your hair
Is what I need for my repair

Crimson skies and autumn leaves
I can’t let go, I can’t believe
I’m longing for something true
So don’t let go, I need you

My home calls for you

 

School's back with a BANG (ouch i'm dead)!

 

1st week was basicaly talks at National Library and school plus workshops and all.Pretty fun at times,boring at times,but there's simple no denying that the food at the Archifest forum was HEAVENLY,well,until day2 lunch that is.Heh.

 

Hmm,some photos.

 

Before i left for F1 Pit Building on Friday night,i was in church with the rest for daily mass.Grace Goh let me read her Cleo magazine and there was an arcticle of how emotions can be contagious and spread easily.Very true.In fact it's the reason why i always try my best to keep my emotions at bay.If only others will be able to see things this way as well.If only i can be better in this area too.

 

Anyway,Human Race!We met on Friday night to stayover before the real deal started at 4am.Baggage management is seriously no joke.Very very busy,especially when they deposit their bags.You've got to be fast,quicl,effecient and stay happy and serve people with a smile. :D I walked a hell lot,placing the bags in their allocated positions and stuff.The race the began and we had a short break before the runners went to collect their bags again.Collection was much easier,for me at least since i knew where the bags were and all.It was no so tiring as depositing bags too.Whew.Fun indeed.

 

School has started and there's a submission coming really soon.I don't want to start school again,but i must adapt quickly.On a site note,i want to thank all my friends for being with me during these weeks.I know i may have been an ass at times and i'm really sorry,but thanks for putting up with me too.A few people i wan to mention are Marianne Chan for making my online nights much more fun-filled!And it's good to know someone who's a little like me too haha.Our secret shall be sealed!Thanks Geri again,your small gestures and stuff really lifts me up.Thanks for trying,i can see and feel it.:) Thanks Chun Ming for Popeye's :D. Just chatting with you made me feel good lah haha.Congrats on being 14th for human race! :D

 

Toodles.

 

Return To You-Visions Of Atlantis

I know not the words to make you stay,
Yet they are engraved on your face.
This secret language, I cannot speak,
Only whisper on the breeze.

My breath, these tears, my cries, all curled up inside.
Haunting apparitions that are hidden to the dark light of day.

Our destiny shall arrive, someday Angel,
I will come to you.
Our fates shall coincide, one day, dear child,
I will come for you.

Cruel means took you far away from here,
Yet your ghost has inspired me.

I shall walk in shadows under the sun,
Awaiting your faithful call.

My breath, these tears, my cries, all caught up inside.
Celestial apparitions that are shaded in the dark light of day.

Our destiny shall arrive, someday Angel,
I will come to you.
Our fates shall coincide, one day, dear child,
I will come for you.

What once was lost is now found deep inside of your soul
Cry out for me and I will return to you.

Our destiny shall arrive, someday Angel,
I will come to you.
Our fates shall coincide, one day, dear child,
I will come for you.

I return to you...

I shall just put everything here cos i'm too lazy to sectionalize my entry today.

 

Last Tuesday was my 1st free day after competition submission on Monday.Went for an acoustic jam with Marianne Chan.I have to say it was rather productive and smooth.We then went to my place area for some good food before going to Esplanade to hang out and stuff.Short and queer day to be honest,but it was fun. :)

 

Wednesday i went out with Gabriel Quek before he left for Taiwan.We went bowling.Our first game be beat me 126 to 113.I won him the 2nd game with a score of 140 to 121.So yes,i have broken my personal best!My previous best was 138 btw.Quite pleased with my game.Played billards and pool after that.It was so long,about 2-3 hours?It was incedibly insane.Travelled all the way (got lost halfway too) to Parklane for some LAN before heading home tired and hungry.Once again,a pretty queer but fun day.

 

Thursday was competition presentation.We got 3rd!Not too bad lah,don't quite like the prize though.Bleargh.Hung out in school with Brenda before heading for Udder's.Quick ice cream before we parted ways.Dinnered with Joshua!Pretty fun too and all.Wasn't as queer a day but certainly fun as well.

 

Friday i stayed at home. :D

 

Yesterday/Saturday,i went to Bishan library to browse stuffs,but guess what?HAPPY DEEPAVALI!!!!!So i went church early.Someone i thought was close to me gave me a really distant feel,but whatever.Choir was okay,i was awfully pitchy.Could not stand it myself.Bleargh.Gave Crystal her birthday present and i hope she likes it.Ordered all the way from Europe haha.Night prac was okay.Cheeky Chocolates after that wasn't too bad. :) I walked Geri to Nemesu after that and we parted ways,not before making my day. :)

 

 

 

Today was pretty boring.Rawr.

 

Toodles.

 

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Today has been a rather smooth day.Could have done more in school if only they did not shut down the air con unit so early and bake me in the library room full of (nice smelling) UHU glue.There's still quite a bit to be done and tomorrow is submission already,but i believe we can do it!Affirmative!

 

I'm trying to get my life mentally and emotionally back on track.Some of you know i've been doing stupid things during this period of time.As Brenda says,Adam=IMPULSE!So yea,it's not easy,but i'll try.

 

Thanks everyone who played a part in my life this year so far.

 

Speaking of impulse,i feel like meeting up and catching up with my ex.I don't know if it's a good idea,but after all,i resolved to revive friendships.I very highly doubt Alison comes here any longer,but she DID play quite a fair role in my life,and i feel we should just meet up and catch up with each other's life. :)

 

Marjolein Kooijman (The Gathering)

FINALLY A GOOD FEMALE BASSIST!!!! :DDD

 

Toodles.

Gerard Bong : Don't overwork yourself okay.

 

Me: Heh,nah i won't,don't worry.Goodnight. :)

 

Sorry,i lied.

 

A casual visit to jazz band today just made me realize how much my bass playing has regressed.I've fallen behind so much.I feel so lousy and incapable in bass playing now.I guess my mood affected my playing as well.I've lost half of myself this year,which is immense love for music.

 

Today has been a rather rollercoaster day.Lots of ups and downs.

 

Bus ride with Namie. :) (Ba Chang!)

Talk with Geri :) (hugzzzz)

 

Waking up so frickin early for human race briefing and ending up being drenched in the rain

Subway diner

 

Tomorrow will be a good day.I promise i will try.

 

Toodles.

Why am i so sad?

 

Why do u think i'm so sad?

 

My heart feels so heavy.Sigh.Very disappointed with myself.Stupid competition wasted my entire holidays.Ah,regret regret regret.Imagine all the precious days that were wasted being used for something much better,more productive,more joyful.Isn't there anyone who watches out for me?

 

I've let some friendships go back to normal,i've released the closeness.I want it to be close,but it'll hurt me.It hurts too,to loosen the friendship.Makes me want to tear at times.Maybe i'm just not meant to have any close friends,or anyone to remember me.It has been a roller coaster these months,but honestly at the end of it all,i still don't feel warmth,nor love.I'm still stuck at square one.Yes i'm still depressed.But it's hard to hide it all the time.

 

It has gone to the point where everyone,yes everyone,annoys me.

 

God,where are you?

 

Toodles.

 

A Monday Night In March-Damian Wilson

We used to talk when we were younger
But I don't see you these days
And if we'd sleep we'd never slumber
The world was new with its ways

 You were such a girl
You'd smile so sweetly and you'd say
We'll grow old and we'll be lovers
But I don't see you these days

Well, we can laugh cos we are wiser
It was different those days
The things we'd do to be together
We had the craziest ways

You were just so kind
You'd hold me close and I'd say
Don't leave me when I'm older
But I don't see you these days

And as we talk we move much closer
You just smile for you know
All this while as we've grown older
We haven't changed but we've shown…

Part of our life
That means much more than we could ask
And if we'd ever stayed together
I wonder how it would last

And if we'd ever stayed together
I wonder how it would last

It pains me to see how things are currently unfolding.It pains me even more than i can't do anything about it.It kills me to know that everyone is so blind about it.

 

I'm alone.Alone in school.I'm not sure if this library thing is fun anymore,but i've got no choice but to complete my task.

 

I feel so negative.I know things will never turn out my way but yet i carry on believing that it will actually happen.I care too much,no correction,i STILL care too much.I feel so alienated from the world.I feel so distracted and lost.I feel i don't belong anyway.I feel so unimportant.

 

I feel like i'm dying.

 

I feel that my life will just end abruptly and i will not see it coming.Is it a sin to live day by day and refuse to see the big picture when ultimately i won't be able to see the end product?

 

Okay,so maybe i do fear death a little after all,cos i know i will go to hell and that's where i do not want to be.

 

Repent.

Black Heart.

Redemption?

 

Toodles.

 

Why haven't you replied my email?I know that you're fine and all,but i want to hear from you.You know how much you mean to me.

 

Why do i get the feeling you're keeping a distance from me?I did not do anything at all.Talk to me,will you?

 

Ok you know what,i shall stop blogging like this.If i don't like people flaming me on their blogs,then by doing this,i'm just being very hypocritical.I shall channel all my resentment else where.

 

I shall not be like my old self ever again.I must try,no matter what,for the sake of friendships,no1 or no1000,it's the same.

 

Urgh,i'm pissed,but no one cares of course.

 

Toodles.

And Yellowcard's October Nights randomly plays in my head.

 

I thought i had done us a favour by just breaking the silence and talking to you.But no,i feel worse.You know what,i should just be numb to it all.I should never have gotten closer to you.And the only way to ease this is just for me to back off alright.I thought you were my Saviour.I can't believe i spent so many frickin months stressing over this when it doesn't even affect you a single bit.

 

I know i can't end our friendship totally,i can't bear to.No matter how much i don't want to care,i will still care a little.So i'm just gonna,just gonna stop all of this shit and leave you be.You won't even bother either.I spent so much time subconciously worrying for nothing.

 

Oh well,i hate to have friendships balance on a thin line,but this is too much.

 

Anyway,my demo is out.Been giving them out here and there,hope people like it.Once again thanks to all those who lent their vocals,especially people like Crystal,Matthew and Namie who took some time off their really busy schedule.Appreciated it.Stacie too,really appreciated it.Thanks guys! :) I owe all of you one.I wonder what happens if i get a gig.I probably need a female vocals to cover all my female lines heh.So interesting if that happens.

 

 

Toodles.

I just talked to Geri on the phone for 2 hours and i'm not sure if i am feeling any better.No matter what i said,nothing will ever change anyway.I'm just too selfish.I caused my own downfal and all.I really feel like giving up.

 

Kit pissed me off today.Pissed me off real bad.

 

And Geri,i really really really can't let go.

 

Yes,time is a relavent thing.And i'm not talking about a minute,i'm talking about years.Like what,3-4 years?I don't know anymore.Stupid brain of mine.

 

Toodles.

Yeap,she's my new female obsession for now.Heh.Her voice is damn good lah.It's not those angel from the sky kind,it's like a male version of Jorn Lande.She's a vocal coach too,i sooo need her to teach me!I mean,she even has her number on her MySpace,Vibeke doesn't.

 

She's in 2 bands, Virus IV and Beautiful Sin.I don't quite like the music of Virus IV for some bits despite her amazing voice.I prefer Beautiful Sin,which is the brainchild of Uli Kursch.May be buying their album.Quite nice.

 

 

Oh and for a little treat, here are some of her photos from the Ayreon 01011001 launch party! :D

 

Lori Linstruth!!!!

More Magali Luyten.

Magali with Floor Jansen of After Forever.

With Lori Linstruth!

With Hansi Kürsch of Blind Guardian!!!!!!! :D

With Liselotte Hegt of DIAL and Cirra Nihva

With Wudstik.

With Marjan Welman of Eliser.Another person with a great voice.

HANSI!!!!!!!

 

It's weird to be blogging about all this,cos it's like Magali's blog but i'm not her.Haha.

 

Here's Ride The Comet.Magali sings in the chorus with Floor.Note Floor's amazing vocal lines during the verses too.

 

Recording sessions for Passion's Grace are OVER!Met up with Namie today to complete the final vocal takes and we're all done.I'm all done rather,gonna print the demo labels soon and will spread them out.It's crazy how a small idea of mine can become something of this level man.And honestly,even if my demo doesn't reach a music scout,i'm still happy i did this.It was really worthwhile and fun to do.And who knows?I'll also be able to say that i produced a cd too.

 

Toodles.

2009 has been really really cruel to me.

 

In all honesty,i just wish i were dead.Living is so painful.

 

The one whom i love never cares.

The one whom i need is never there.

 

I just feel so miserable after all this.Library competition is just making feel much more stressed and worse,if there's still a worse.

 

And you,if only you could just take a break from all your studying a little,and just talk to me a little.

 

Toodles.